Lots of people are fair weather fans in lots of aspects of life, if you think about it. You do not like your spouse, you get a divorce. You do not like you home, you move. Your car stops meeting your needs, you get a new one. You do not like a book you bought, you buy a new one. You do not like your dinner as much as you thought, you return it to the kitchen or it does not make a reappearance in yours. In the world we live in, being a fair weather fan does not always apply to just sports.
But what happens when you do not like God? He is omnipresent( everywhere). You can not divorce him or move away. So what happens when you think God stops meeting your needs? He is not a car, you can not trade Him in on a new model to fit your needs. What about when you do not like words God has written on your book of life? It's your book and there is not another like it! You can not return it for a new book or even give it too someone else to read. Nor is it like a meal you have been served, so what do you do now??
Well, I have been there. Let me say, its a bitter pill to swallow when you do everything you think your Lord is asking for you and you continue to serve Him but you do not feel He is hearing you through your word or actions anymore.
Actually, I am here right now. And the question I am asking my self is: Does God view me as a fair weather fan?
Some of my friends and I like to joke when the kids are asking for too much and the already get fair more than we ever did at their age and their attitudes stink like toilet water while asking is that we are required to do nothing more than give you food, shelter and clothes. Everything else is bonus!
It's kinda the same with God. He meets my needs. But meeting my wants is a bonus. He does not have too but He does so because He loves us. And when we start to expect that going on vacations, getting that promotion at work (or even going to work), or being healthy are something that we expect God to continue to give us that is when God checks our attitude of gratitude. And since He knows the beginning from the ending and everything in between, sometimes He shakes things up a little ( or alot) because we are not where we need to be.
So when God shakes things up a little, am I a fair weather fan getting mad and stomping around the house demanding that God allow my team to win?
Sigh..sometimes!
As painful as that is to admit, sometimes I get so feed up with my current circumstances I yell at God like the announcer on the TV and demand to know "WHERE IS THE DEFENSE?" As my favorite team fumbles the ball again. Or should I say, as I fumble the ball again. I tell Korbin all the time, you are only as good as the worst person on your team. If I am the worst person on Gods team, what do I expect Him to do about my faults and failures? Swoop in and the Save the day like Superman? Although He could, what we I learn if He did?
After all, the purpose of the entire creation of God was to praise Him. If I never failed, how could I give Him adequate praise?
This week has been full of highest highs and extreme lows. I am trusting in God to meet all my needs, He has in the past and I know He will continue to in the future. But just like when the media whispers to the Quarter Back that he is carrying the team and leading them to victory, the devil is equally whispering to me that if God really loved me why would He let me suffer?
The bigger question is, why would He not? There are times that I have to look at my child and realize that he must fall flat on his face now to learn a bigger lesson for later. Is it painful to watch because I could have just as easily "fixed" it for him? You bet! I love my kids! I carried these boys inside my body and literally ate and breathed for them for 9 months of my life, so although we are physically disconnected now what would make any other think that love would do anything other than grow and expand over time? God may not have physically carried me inside His body but He fashioned me from nothing into something from a thought! That is much more than I ever did for my kids, and everything I am is because of that. And if I am to grow into the child He wants me to be, from time to time, I have to fall flat on my face.
What do you do, when you are falling or have fallen? Are you a fair weather fan? Do you get mad at God and turn the channel? Stop praying? Reading your bible? Going to church?
You continue to do what is right. Just like when your kids are talking to you, pleading their case as they ask for mercy instead of punishment, you sit there and listen. You weigh your decision verses their action and consequence. That is the same with God, May be not be responding but He is listening, weighing his option based upon your Free Will and is just waiting on you.
Waiting on me to do what? What does God want from me? I would ask myself over and over again. My worship.
We worship while we wait. No matter what this week has held and how broken my heart is at this moment, I look around and still see so very much God has blessed me with.
I was created to worship!
I am not a fair weather fan of God's. Things are tough, they may get tougher. I may hurt more. I do not know when things will end, at the beginning of this wee, I thought for certain God was going to swoop in and save the day, but now I do not know if the devil was whispering to me what he knew I wanted to hear from God? Only God knows when this trail will end, and when it does, something else will be on it's heals because that is how the devil works. He will continually try to tear down what God wants to build up.
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